Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Gearing up for judgement day

I could test tomorrow.  I thought I would need to, for my mental health.  It's the first thing I thought about this morning, yet I can't decide if it's what I really want to do. 

I haven't had one pregnancy symptom.  Well, nothing that hasn't fooled me before.  I used to Google every little thing wondering if it was an early pregnancy symptom and the answer was always yes.  Bad dreams, yes.  Aching teeth, yes.  Hypersensitive sense of smell, yes, yes, yes!!  There's something out there for everyone.  This doesn't help.

I refuse to use Google right now, even though I have questions.  I'm scared to death there are only two possible outcomes (I know this isn't rational.  I'm not being rational right now).  I'm either A) Not Pregnant (actually the lesser of these two evils) or B) I could have an ectopic pregnancy. 

What I need is a magic 8 ball.  Guess where I found one?  I lied about refusing to use Google.  :)


Of course my next question was is it ectopic and I got the same friggin answer.  I hate this game.  I'm off to Google symptoms of ectopic pregnancy.  I asked my husband to do it, but he's too busy.  Lucky for me I get to blame him for upcoming breakdown.

PS  I'm fine.  I just woke up in a funk.

PPS This post was only supposed to be about whether or not I go out and buy a pregnancy test today.  I can't remember the last time I used one.  That's another thing I'd sworn off.  . .

1 comment:

  1. Don't do it...it doesn't help!!!

    After my recent 1st IUI I tested from day 7-14 using internet cheapies. All negative...because I wasn't pregnant.

    Wait it out!!!!! You'll either get your period or you won't.